Wake me up when September ends..
Four or five years ago, I was stressed about lovelife. This time, it’s about friendship and path.
I dreamt of building a clinic here in Manila with a friend. During that time I’m in a state where I still don’t know where to go. What I want to do with my life. If this is the place where I’m supposed to be. Then COVID happens, the next thing I know Vets On Call is built. We were happy and stressed at the same time.
Vets On Call gave me the feels of VKLV life again. I’m glad and felt fulfilled. There are sorts of problems that occur here and there but we managed to fix it. I thought our differences were settled calmly. But I guess I was wrong.
The difference about home management grows, patience is being burnt out and stress with work is also joining the party. We are a mess that tries to stay together. I kinda sense that next year we might live in separate houses but still near just to avoid clashes. I thought we were going to move away in good condition.
But I’m not sure about that now. I’m not even sure if Vets On Call will still be pushed through and still be whole. I personally hope that the four of us (veterinarians) will still be complete. However, if I’m the only one who wants that.. It ain’t gonna happen.
I’m mad with the person who stirs our already unstable friendship. If things went worse, I wouldn’t be able to talk to that person ever. I might also took a long time to recover for what he did. Yes, we were wrong but sticking his nose with other people’s business and making situation worst is also wrong. He’s already an adult. He must know better. From what I heard he was just concern. Nonsense! You’re just trying to win someone’s heart. Aren’t you aware that you’re tearing us apart?
And to my friend, if you’re going to leave because of what he said, go ahead. I don’t need someone who won’t stay with me when things are getting difficult. Forget the dreams we’ve made. I shouldn’t base my plans with other people anyway.
This is the time to decide for myself and make a decision solely on the things I want. I always say “I don’t know” because it’s the truth. But, now, I’ll start saying ” I’m certain that I want to do this and that”.
I’m certain that I want to have my own business. I’m certain that I don’t want to work for someone for the rest of my life. I’m certain I want to travel the world.